its been prolly like over a month since i’ve been married and so much good shit has been coming this way! im already 6 months passed my pregnancy. We move out of this crummy one bedroom apartment at the end of this month aka my hubbys b/day aka memorial day aka INDY 500!!!!!!! lol we found a house we are goin to buy and raise our big family there. And yes I know i am just a step mother but in this family you are still as close as flesh blood family. I love my kids to the max and being able to extend my family couldnt be a better blessing for us. I once read in this cosmo magazine that you should treat marriage as an everyday vacation instead of a constant hard work task (if that made any sense). Hope u get the point, and its true cz altho nothing has changed i feel like im doing the right thing in my life. Im happier than ever and the one thing I cant wait is to be able to smoke a blunt with him like the old days. lol Im actually looking forward to my first shot after birth lol. im think strawberry jello shots. mmmmmHmmm sounds yummy.!!! but for now, this baby is all im concerned about, i want this baby as healthy as possible and i know she will be.!

So i found out bout this bitch i used to know. Shes becoming fake. How? well lets jz put it as she chose dicks over bitches ….. but what many people would say is “love is blind” but no u dumb bitch ur blind for not opening ur eyes and realizing real is real. ANYWAYS ‘ nuff bout that one. I have so much on my plate now-a-days. Im preggo and at the same time im planning a wedding for my lover & i. ENGAGED on valentines day and it was freakin awsome bcz he proposed in front of all the people that were in our section out at dinner in OUTBACK. For reallllllllll talk…. i couldnt give a shit bout nothing els from this point on. Im still hella young but i feel hella old. I feel like an old lady that walks around mindless in her own bubble. I know i walk slow now but i dont givva damn. lol being engaged has really put me in a healthy mental position. I feel ready for what gods got ahead for us. And according to these old lady client of mines, marriage life aint easy. But its all good cz im alll in. I love this dude from the gekko n its bout time to let old shit go and let this new life begin. I have had miracles in my life n im fully thankful for them, but at the same time ive sacraficed the most valuable people in my life. Maybe this is how its suppose to be. Keep the ones that left, 4eva in my heart & try to hold on to the ones that r still here. 

p.s - sorry that u ended up like this…. i hope u && ur daughter the very best n nothing but the best. but if u get to this i aint shit to u & u aint shit to me homie…. reach out the other way.